Let me Sleep…

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Let me Sleep…

For my Dreams are far better than my Reality…

I dream of what could have been,

Of better versions of my reality,

Of better versions of me,

Of everything I wanted to be and more,

Of dreams & wishes coming true,

Of coming out of the rockbottom I got stuck in a while ago,

Of friends & family looking up to me rather than down,

Of my confidence returning,

Of me becoming the person I used to be…

Let me Sleep

So that I never have to wake up again…

I hope you Fight…

“The couples that are ‘meant to be’ are the one who go through everything that is meant to tear them apart and come out even stronger than they were before.” – Internet

There are times when,
Things suddenly change…
You are no longer the same and
Neither is she…

You aren’t on the same path anymore
And things no longer make sense…
Deep down, you don’t wish to part
But your brain tells you need to…

That is when,
I hope you fight…

I hope you fight,
Like there is no tomorrow,
And there is no end in sight…
You hate yourself for saying those words,
You hate her for yelling them back…

I hope you fight,
Till your soul is sucked dry,
And your eyes are sore,
The pain you feel hurts every fibre of your being,
And you feel it’s the end of everything you built…

I hope you fight,
Till you finally realise,
That, there is nothing left to say,
But only feel,
The love you once had,
And the love you still do…

I hope you fight;
For the Love you share,
For the Love you built your life on,
For yourself and for each other…

19 December

A date that reminds me,

of everything that’s important and not,

of things I’ve gotten and lost…

of days filled with joy and love,

of misunderstandings and fights,

of tears of joy and pain,

of love and hate,

of distance and togetherness,

of life and coincidences…

A date that gave me everything one would ever need…

A Soulmate and a Best Friend

Happy Birthday you two! ❤


“Anybody can become angry — that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way — that is not within everybody’s power and is not easy.” ― Aristotle

There’s a lot of anger,
spewing inside me…

It comes out on days unexpected;
messes with my brain,
And uses up all of my energy…

I get all negative, jealous and mad,
I say things I normally wouldn’t,
I’m sarcastic, rude and hate everyone;
Even people I know I shouldn’t…

I don’t know how to control this negativity,
So I close my eyes and think why…

I try to let this feeling pass;
This feeling of hate and envy…
I try to feel it till it hurts,
Till it all leaves me in the form of tears…

These salty droplets filled with hate,
Reminds me of the person I really am –

An okay sort of person who tries,
to be the best person, she can be.

Abortion – To Ban or Not to Ban?

“The irrationality of disgust suggests it is unreliable as a source of moral insight. There may be good arguments against gay marriage, partial-birth abortions and human cloning, but the fact that some people find such acts to be disgusting should carry no weight. – Paul Bloom”

These days there is a new topic of discussion I see doing the rounds – Abortion.

I see articles after articles & so many heated arguments regarding this. It saddens my heart when I see people arguing and throwing around words – sluts, murderers & child killers around.

The main issue here is that people try to look at this from two different angles, one is if it is morally right or wrong & another that banning it takes away basic women rights.

But these arguments make no sense! It doesn’t lead anywhere because people who believe that abortion is killing babies, they are never going to see it from the perspective of the person who thinks it isn’t (and vice versa).

Now I ask you to relate this issue to another one that has been doing rounds for years now – LGBTQ relationships. In this issue, too, we see people who advocate basic human rights & people who vehemently disagree that such relationships should even exist.

The whole point of mentioning this is that no matter whether we agree or disagree, banning a relationship or banning abortion isn’t going to stop people from doing it. Banning it would only increase the risks of deaths among children & women. Banning it would lead to various dangerous back alley procedures & a myriad of other problems.*

Banning isn’t a solution to any issue like this.

This was the case years ago when abortion & usage of birth control methods were punishable by death but this lead to a whole host of other problems as mentioned earlier; risks of deaths & botched illegal procedures.

The whole reason we have an option of abortion is so that parents who cannot afford to take care of a disabled child, they have an option of not doing so. Not every city in the world is equipped with support for the disabled.

At the same time, parents who don’t see children in their future, should not be forced to have a child for the sake of it. Can you imagine the increase in child abuse, the number of orphaned children, & a whole set of children with mental health issues because of unloving parents?

What about women who are raped, why should they have to carry a child that they didn’t plan to have, they never asked for any of it.

While there are options that would decrease abortion such as condoms & birth control pills but ‘not wanting to have babies’ aren’t the only reasons one would want to get an abortion.

All I would say is this – Try not to look at this issue from a moral angle or a feminist one. The only thing that should matter is that a person (in this case, women) should always have a choice.

It may not be right or the best option available, but it doesn’t mean the choice should be taken away from them.

*  An article that discusses the risks of banning abortions ->  http://www.businessinsider.com/anti-abortion-womens-health-effects-2016-7